Gilberto Rosas

In Memory of my Wonderful Husband Gilberto Rosas who went to be with the Lord on March 5, 2026

Losing my husband is a devastating experience, one I would never wish upon anyone...but He needed to let go and go to the Lord. He was no longer living the life he wanted so he could get around.

He had two bouts with cancer and got over that pretty well, but then he got Parkinsons it took everything out of him. It is a horrible debilitating disease that just got worse and worse and robbed him of the things he enjoyed doing. Day by day you could see the hardship upon him and the loss of what he loved to be doing.

I feel I need to write this and not sure what will be said, but it is from my heart and if he were here even for one more day...my heart would sing, but he is not here...but the thing is I know where he is and he is with our Lord and Savior in whatever form God has put him in...and he doesn’t hurt anymore, has a great memory, can walk, can eat, and can talk. Thank you Lord.

Lord, I know you are watching over him. I wish I would have had more time with him...but he needed to go to you and be made whole even if, for a season, I will greatly miss him each day. I thank you Lord for every moment we had together.

I had the privilege of spending almost 60 years with my husband Gil. We would have had our 57th Anniversary on the 8th, and he died on the 5th. This is tough on my heart, but at the same time I know he is whole and with our son Marty in heaven and all who have gone on before us we loved.

On one hand I hate him gone, but on the other hand I love he is with the Lord and those we have loved. May the peace he found after taking his last breath here turn to joy that we, as humans, can dream of...but never truly fathom until we get to heaven. I wonder what he did right when he got there, what beauty was there for him to see, if he got to hug our Lord, how did the angels look for real, the tree of life, the river that flows, I wonder how he felt and what he thought as he went to be with the Lord? Ahh... He had not eaten in weeks so I know my Lord gave him a wonderful meal he could eat and enjoy...thank you Jesus. I’m happy for him but sad because I will miss him every day.

We had love, honor, and respect for each other. I had gratitude for all the little things no one even saw him do for me that he did. It is the little things I will miss. It is the quiet times over the years when we could just sit and be us together. That I already miss.

The gratitude of love, the time together...even the times we didn’t agree. Would they matter today? No, of course not. We didn’t have to agree on everything no one truly does, but we agreed on the tough things and those that mattered to us. For almost 60 years of knowing him...I wish it would be even more that that here, but not the way he was hurting and living...that would be selfish and I want him whole in heaven even through the pain here I know I will feel without him.

What would I say to my husband? Oh, honey, you rest in the peace of our Lord because I didn’t want you to hurt any more. I didn’t want you embarrassed any more that you felt you could not eat around people or talk to them. You deserve the peace that only God can give you. I am crying like crazy writing this honey...but at the same time I am happy for you being there. Mixed emotions are horrible and my soul is so heavy with pain and grief.

We said we wouldn’t leave each other and I know you were trying to honor that...but I had to tell you to let go and go to the Lord to find your peace. I think you held on until I said that to you. That was so difficult to say, but you were hurting and you didn’t want your life like that. I’m sorry the doctors here couldn’t fix you...but then I know Dr Jesus could and that still bring me peace.

You rest now my love...may an eternity give you an eternity of peace and fulfillment in doing whatever God gives you to do there.

Although I hurt now and will until my last breath here...I know I get to see you again and that I have my hope in.

I love you Gil with all my heart and death didn’t stop that love. From the first smile, to the last goodbye here...I loved you through the good, the bad, and even the ugly times. I thank you for loving me no matter what we went through. I will go on here...but your presence here is gone now...and I have missed since you took that last breath here. You fought as hard as you could but that horrible disease is now gone from your little body and you have been made whole.

Our life was a lifelong journey. We had more time to share our life than so many people do. We laughed together, cried together, and held each other up even during the difficult times.

What about our memories. We had great ones, and we had such difficult ones in life to deal with...but we made it Baby...we made it through. How many memories do you have together in almost 60 years? More than I can write here and so many were personal to just us. I don’t want to share those and it would take volumes to honor you through them all.

Remember when we said until death do we part. Love doesn’t end there Gil...you are dead but I still honor you. You were the best thing to happen to me even in the difficult times of life.

There are no words deep enough to let you know how much I have loved you, or how much I will miss that smile and touch. Holding your hand right now, if I could, would still mean the world to me...but I can’t so all I have are memories and words.

You remember that rock I gave you that said you are my rock (Yes, Jesus is the ultimate Rock, but you were my earthy rock and I thank you for that.) I guess it is like the North Star....Almost six decades of that one. When I look up at the marvelous sky the Lord made...I can still dream of you and that you are now whole and have perfect peace.

Although these almost 60 years with you will never be long enough, but we will have an eternity knowing each other in whatever way that will be. You have always been the best part of my days and life.

It has been an honor to love you and spend these years with you from that first smile at Westab, to that smile you gave me from your bed in hospice. Same smile! Same love!

Rest now my love. You’re the memory I will hold in my heart until I see you again. I’ll just be minding the time here until then...still in a way that will honor you.

I know you don’t see this, but I pray you took our love to heaven. I will continue to look for you in my quiet moments even through the pain and just wish I could hold you once more, and let you know I love you.

It is hard to forget someone you love...why would I want to? Your spirit, love, and laughter still remain in my heart. Thank you.

Our kids miss you and I know always will. It has been hard on them too. They love you. Some are really struggling too. Thank you for the beautiful moments we all shared and the love that will never fade.

Once the love we shared is never lost...it just turned into a memory. Thank you for the memories. I love you Gil. See you in the future my love. Thank you Jesus for taking him home so he didn’t hurt any more.

Lynn